1. Just because we look calm, does not mean that we are.
High functioning anxiety is like a huge monster inside of your head, that for the life of you, you can’t seem to make it go away. You do everything in your power to make it stop, but you can’t help but feel the aches in your shoulders, and feel your heart beat speed up like a wildfire. You look put together. You look like you have your life together. But inside? You feel like you are dying.
2. Sometimes we have to immediately leave social settings without warning. Please don’t take this as an insult.
We feel fine for a minute, laughing along with our friends and enjoying life, when all of a sudden, our head will be full of ‘what ifs’ and swirling questions come crashing down into our brains. It can be so incredibly overwhelming that we will have to leave certain situations to calm ourselves down.
3. We constantly put ourselves down.
We may be successful in our careers. We may be great at our jobs. We may even get praised often. But do we believe it? No. In our career, in our personal life and in our love, we put ourselves down. We always think we can do better and we always put ourselves through so much stress just to get through one day.
4. We have tiny habits that we can’t break.
Sometimes our anxiety comes out in different habits. Some bite their nails, while others tear off their cuticles. Some tap their feet in a constant attempt to rid their body of all of the anxiety and the questions. For me personally? I do a lot of different things. I yawn to try to breathe better. I pick at my eyelashes. I bite my nails. I roll my shoulders over and over again to try to rid my body of those toxic thoughts. We do anything and everything to try to distract ourselves from the ideas that takeover our minds.
5. Anxiety doesn’t care about how happy we are or what is going on in our lives. It is always there.
No matter what we do, no matter where we are, and no matter who we are with, it can happen at any moment. The fear. The shaking. The images that cross our mind at lightning speed. The intense nausea and stomach cramps. The worry. The panic. The twirling of our hair. The need for more oxygen. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.